Here

Here, sitting in my cube trying to be, still here, just here, still and quiet with the Grateful Dead “Don’t murder me, I beg of you don’t murder me, please don’t murder me” Trying to do, here, nothing here, but listen, shut out inside  voice, emails there and their instant messages. “I was born in the desert […]

Gendering and Mental Health

Lately I have been exploring the current concepts of how parental influence creates, demonstrates, and reinforces concepts of masculinity in developing boys.  In particular, I have been exploring how young boys are made to deny parts of themselves in order to conform to the dominant cultural concepts of maleness. This is true of all men, even […]

Motivation

I know that a large part of running a successful blog is consistency and regular productivity.  I mean, it’s not hard to understand that if there is no new content, there are no new (or recurring) readers. This something I really struggle with in regard to my blogs.  My other blog, showcasing (lol) my poetry usually […]

The Problem with Vacations

A couple weeks ago I had an entire week off work for vacation time because my wife was between semesters for her doctoral program and wasn’t working on a practicum (think indentured servitude) at the time.  It was great — sort of. This last weekend I had four days off because my company gives us […]

Depression? Me? Nah! — My Story

I’m don’t feel sad or blue.  I don’t break down crying for no apparent reason.  I still go to work — maybe begrudgingly, but I go.  My appetite is normal. I am not suicidal. Everything is fine. But it’s not! I sleep A LOT.  I fall asleep watching TV, reading, or even playing a video game. […]

Population — On Oregon Stand Off

320 million lonely sparks of light shine for each other and sometimes by themselves, without an audience All moving, mostly circumscribed though some go astray, some falter some spin off, colliding with others destroying along their broken path some take, also breaking the calm, unto themselves what is not theirs some simply benignly sink or fade […]

The Monster Behind the Door

Behind the door, open almost always are small black puffs of Labrador hair flecks of white, red from a couple pits maybe a strand or two of husband/wife brown, his being a bit darker than hers a small but growing mass, protected behind the door, open almost always hidden from view and from broom which […]

Log Jam

Days flow down and away river jammed packed with logs groaning together on the raging waters from head of the flume to the gated and closed bottom groaning under pent up pressure as if influenced by their own desire to be free of the muddy slippery banks and confines from shore to distant shore to sail alone, with time […]